A long road ahead

Well, upon much prodding, I'm quasi-updating the blog. It's Finals weekend, so everything is hectic, but I'll throw in a few thoughts:

I still have a lot to learn. These past months have pointed this out to me to an incredible degree. As ridiculous as it seems now, I looked at my life a few months ago, and thought that to a degree, I'd arrived. I had my life in order, financially secure, almost finished with college, lived responsibly in a nice house, etc, etc. Most importantly of course, I had a vibrant and healthy relationship with God. Can't forget that. Anyhow, I was very happy with my life.

As I've been reminded, through circumstance as well as times where God has directly said "Hey, check this out", I've still got a long way to go.. Especially emotionally. When faced with deep emotions, my responses are often selfish, childlike, immature. I'd like to think sometimes that I've got life handled, but the past months have showed me many times when I know I don't. It's a good thing, but painful sometimes.

One of my favorite quotes is by John Newton.

"I am not what I ought to be. I am not what I want to be. I am not what I hope to be. But still, I am not what I used to be. And by the grace of God, I am what I am"

I'm not sure where else I was going to go with this, and I'd really best get to studying.. I'll update this throughout the week, in theory.

Ah, theory.